changes

how unoriginal right? the title? how many blogs have you read with that title? but in my defense, it is fitting. especially with the current circumstances.

at home...
dad is leaving for the us (fuck the philippines' economic status)
mom might leave
kuya left

at school...
im loving ust. finally. this feeling is long over due. i dont know if its just because of the basketball thing (GO USTe!) or something else, but im definitely loving it.
im having genuine fun with my blockmates (and batchmates).
well, ok, one thing hasnt changed yet, i still dont havnt failed a subject yet. BWAHAH! in your face comparative politics!

my "barkada"...
i miss them, but i guess im getting used to it.
im not mad, not angry...worst im disappointed at her. after all these years, she cant even talk to me. i dont get that crap that she doesnt know what to say or she's afraid to approach me, fuck! and besides,if i am that important wouldnt she just take the risk? am i not worth that risk?

and then there is me...
ive changed (again)
i guess im not that strong anymore (emotionally)
i know how to commute now. really commute. train, jeep, fx, bus bring it on!

sigh. im in a computer shop so that's my excuse for writing a shallow entry. i cant pour out my feelings here, i think the korean guy beside me is reading my entry. damn you!

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I gave up coffee and cigarettes I hate to say it hasn’t helped me yet I thought my problems would just dissipate And all my pain would be in yesterday I poured my booze all down the kitchen drain And watched my bad habits get flushed away I thought that that would keep my head on straight And all my pain would be in yesterday But it’s true I’m still blue But I finally know what to do I must quit, I must quit….. you. I thought that if I didn’t go and play The sadness would get bored and go away I thought that if I didn’t go astray That all my pain would be in yesterday But it’s true I’m still blue But I finally know what to do I must quit, I must quit….. you. I sold my guitar and my piano I thought that it was these that kept me low I thought if only I could try and change That all my pain would be in yesterday But it’s true I’m still blue But I finally know what to do I must quit, I must quit…. You. I must quit, I must quit…. You.